Birth
You may have noticed the name change on my header to this blog. The address will still be the same at "People and Pineapple Upsidedown Cake", but this little corner of the blogosphere will now be called "Refuge" to me.
I know, I know...big woopie! No fanfare, just a simple name change. On a personal level an epic battle has been waging in my heart and head on where to spend my time and energies. I keep up with advocacy and policy for the seriously mentally daily, but find myself fretting and growing cynical if I'm honest with myself.
God tells me in Romans 12:21, "Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."
And he tells me to wait on him, look to him and do not fret...
"Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;
fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way,
over the man who carries out evil devices!" ~ Psalm 37:7
Because fretting only leads to evil...
"Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath!
Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil." ~ vs. 8
I thought about not paying attention anymore to what is happening with regard to our broken system and how it will effect the care for those who are in the small category of a serious mental illness. But somehow God doesn't seem to be lessening my desire for it. He brings clarity and keeps opening the doors He wants me to walk through, narrowing my focus. Knowing what I know, I can't turn back and pretend it's not happening...
...and maybe, all I can really do is record it all in one place. The journey with our son, its effects on our family, the lessons, the truth about the undercurrent of what is happening within policy making. Even if it's just for my own peace of mind. And feel free to walk along the road with me, to find the place of refuge with me, and to nudge me on the shoulder when you see that my passions are going astray.
I know, I know...big woopie! No fanfare, just a simple name change. On a personal level an epic battle has been waging in my heart and head on where to spend my time and energies. I keep up with advocacy and policy for the seriously mentally daily, but find myself fretting and growing cynical if I'm honest with myself.
God tells me in Romans 12:21, "Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."
And he tells me to wait on him, look to him and do not fret...
"Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;
fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way,
over the man who carries out evil devices!" ~ Psalm 37:7
Because fretting only leads to evil...
"Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath!
Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil." ~ vs. 8
I thought about not paying attention anymore to what is happening with regard to our broken system and how it will effect the care for those who are in the small category of a serious mental illness. But somehow God doesn't seem to be lessening my desire for it. He brings clarity and keeps opening the doors He wants me to walk through, narrowing my focus. Knowing what I know, I can't turn back and pretend it's not happening...
...and maybe, all I can really do is record it all in one place. The journey with our son, its effects on our family, the lessons, the truth about the undercurrent of what is happening within policy making. Even if it's just for my own peace of mind. And feel free to walk along the road with me, to find the place of refuge with me, and to nudge me on the shoulder when you see that my passions are going astray.
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